Wednesday, September 28, 2011



when it doubt, (open for interpretation).

please, do tell.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011


if this was what i wanted, or knew i wanted then this would have been a moment.
why is it that i am so unsure of what im trying to tell myself that i only see the bigger picture only when i dont have it anymore.

Friday, September 23, 2011

of heart

change in all things

Read a book. The covers are usually the ones that attract me. Packaging makes a big difference no? I like plain ones, black glossy ones. Preferably not hard cover because I dont like having the gap behind the bindings, or the flimsy paper cover that wont stay in place (as a matter of fact), but that doesnt matter because i am straying away from my intended metaphor. what was it again?

Ever wonder why films fade out into black screens (really I have no idea). This is a question by the way.

To me, all I see is a clear reflection. After a movie, after (closing a) book. The face of a person who has been too indulgent into fiction. I think that is what they do, blank out so you'd catch a brief glimpse of the face behind the mask, the face that longs for something more but never had the prospect. For maybe that 40 minutes, an hour or so, felt contented seeing the happy endings of non existence, because a part of me wants to believe that at every end of a rainbow lies a pot of gold.

Im not sure why im writing this or where I am going with it now, im looking at my notes and all i wrote was, Like watching a movie & when it goes blank, all you see is yourself. Then, I had a point to prove, now im just confused.

Thats that.

I decided to jump on my archives and this was what I found. 
The very same and exact thought had crossed my mind (multiple times) recently.

Sometimes I wonder who I am and who I am suppose to be. Sometimes I see or read of a character I can relate to but only to feel just as confused as soon as I close the book, my face starring back at me from the gloss of the wrapper.
Am I letting every good thing slip by ?
I just hope I do not disappoint.

Wednesday, September 21, 2011



never EVER go to KLCC during a public holiday.
you tend to forget the number of foreigners or even locals that wants to see the twin towers.

Monday, September 12, 2011


even after all these years its nice to know that you are still here.
i think any girl would be lucky to have you and who'd knew id be this happy girl. :)
thank you for sticking around with me.
though we've crossed the two year mark, i very much have known that ive loved you longer than that.
i will always remember that day at the park when those few words lit my fifteen year old heart.

we can never be certain of what will happen in the future.
there is a (sad) chance that we might not end up with the people we are with today for some (sad) reason.

but i know beyond a doubt that should that day come, you'd always be that guy.

 i love you

Sunday, September 11, 2011

for you from us

One day Sarah told me about some art competition Starbucks was having.
Basically you had to purchase a grande drink and request for the white takeaway cup and doodle according to their theme-of-the-day.
So ta da! Here's what i won. Last year's Christmas edition cups and a few Starbucks vouchers :)
All they told us was that winners get a "limited edition Starbucks merchandise". Who'd thought they'd be pretty generous in their prizes.
They had a winners everyday. Of course, Sarah won too :)

I shall keep one cup for display and one for drinking :) :)

Friday, September 9, 2011

oh cameron

 oh cameron. 
I could listen to you all day.

I think I just died. 

Monday, September 5, 2011

those boring rants #25

I find myself zoning out very frequently lately.
(random thought: is very frequently gramatically correct? not that i bother about how i sentence my words because that would be too unfun while blogging but i just remembered how we used to study in BM that teramat sangat was wrong. just wondering)
A little too much whilst driving.
It just feels so good to stare blankly watching things move by without focusing on anything at all. is that bad for your eyes?

Well anyway September will be a pretty hectic month.
3 mid terms and a major assignment all due in a duration of 3 weeks.
Ive never really liked September in general anyways.

But there's definitely a day in September im pretty fond of :)

Friday, September 2, 2011

stop this train

Oh Cameron :)
thank you The Glee Project for unraveling such amazing talent.
He didnt win & not because he got booted.
so so so... :)

Thursday, September 1, 2011


I used to have this immense love for music when I was younger. Not that I don't love it anymore. Just not as much.
My music wasnt anything near cool. or any of that type (though I'm not even sure if I had a type) but what really matters was how I felt for it.

Does it not.

In a way I hate how people may judge me base on the these things (as any other criteria as a matter of fact)
At the same time I hate how I am one of those people who picture others base on what they like or dislike.

I am reminded of how I should see people based on their passion for things. Who they are, based on the way they feel for what they love. Not something they claim they love but only feel so because of mere peer pressure or compliance.

Question, do we really truly love this ?


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