Monday, October 24, 2011

paper thin

So, is it easy to drop a habit?
do people change, in the sense that you get to choose what you would choose to like/ not like, choose to behave, or say, choose what you'd dislike.

20 years, and I still am trying to deal with myself,
I'd have to admit, im not entirely the person i wished i would be, could be, should be.

I seem to have jump from one thing to another, for example, getting agitated with this thing and the other.
Just when I give myself a pat on the back for finally graduating from what I disliked about myself for disliking or feeling annoyed about something, another habit seems to sprout like a germ. Not that this occurs frequently of course. Goodness, no.

So question:
is it me or do people get to discard what they like/dislike in a snap. I find myself holding on to my habits for so long. Like every other thing I hold on to, the things that i absolutely love and choose not to let go. So would this be me: holding on to every single thing, good, bad. only contributing to my rather self incurred detriment?

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

love, loss

  • RM5 orange button down shirt I got from the recent PDI warehouse sale, with unnoticeable stains, that just makes it look worn out, but who is to complain right? absolute love.
  • Good second day hair. Still trying to experiment on what works best with this new do. Thankful I dont have to use the hot iron anymore!
  • Green skirt which looked more turquoise in picture. If i could find a skirt in this shade, id buy it in a heartbeat!

Badly craving for banana leaf rice.

Thursday, October 6, 2011

she's not there

So I finally had the guts to get my hair permed/curled last week, though my wallet is hurting a little.

The day I had it done, I knew Id already liked it.
but because my hair was naturally stick straight and too soft, I woke up to almost straight hair after the third day.
It almost looked like I had my hair in a scrunchy bun, took the elastic out, and didnt bother combing it.
Some parts were also stick straight, so i went back to the salon to have it done again, free of charge of course.
So after having stuff put into my hair twice in less than a week, I am pretty pleased with the outcome.
I still fear waking up in the morning and seeing it not curly anymore.
If it stays like this, then it was worth every penny :)

Wednesday, October 5, 2011


I think I am having a quater-life crisis.
obviously I am might be a little too young to have such a problem but I think too much, I worry too much, so naturally you'd have to understand why I am making sense, if you know me of course.

I never knew how much I would wonder or felt so heavily for choices, of course knowing quite well that I couldnt have done anything else differently: maybe. would I have been more sure?

Down this road Ive had so much to account for. I start to see myself as a person who never finishes what I've started. I think im beginning to see a pattern. Pathetic, really.
Down this road, I seem to have lost myself.


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